sorgar191

I didn't ask for much. Only for you to talk to me, and comfort me. That's all I needed..That's all I wanted. I was alone, and you paid no mind to it. I was hurt, but you just continued to hurt me more. I didn't ask for much, Just a friend. I needed to talk to someone.. And you were the only one I could. I feel lost, and alone. I just needed a hand, to get my mind off of this monster inside be slowing eating me away. I needed something; A needed love. I got no love, no comforting, no nothing. Just loneliness which still mucks me today. I am sorry, I'm sorry I'm not more; not better, or  nicer..prettier..etc. I'm sorry I'm not er. But, right

Each day. Hands shake..voice shaky..face is red and I feel as if I have a monster in my stomach. Nervousness, and nausea. Fear. Just constant fear. I cover my face and turn away from the crowd to avoid them seeing me. My eyes water, and I cry. I don't mean to..I just do. I don't want to, I just do. And I try my best to hold all this in but I cannot. that monster inside of me is corrupting my life. Every Monday, I worry. Constant worry.  Worrying about the day to come, and the situations I'll have to be in. I can't, I want to go away, I want to just lay in bed. I don't want to face people, and I don't want to get up. I want to lay. Once in aw

I can't grasp this change in my life. It's not even big, it's nothing..But..To me, It's big. For so long I've been a depressed girl..One who had no friends and..just sat and played pokemon. No one knows, either..I thought if I'd change my feelings would change everything would change. And that's frankly what I needed. I needed change; I needed to escape. I could sit and go on and on about myself, my feeling and thoughts..Because it's so much easier to just publish it to the internet, And chances are people that see you in the halls, and muck your every move won't see. Something that gets everything out..and yes, I'm taking a chance.. But